Will Young recalled feeling ‘shame’ for attending Pride parades after music bosses tried to keep him in the closet.
The star, 42, attended his first parade in 2014 after spending his life feeling ‘wrong and bad and evil’.
“People did try and sort of initially shut me out but I’d been through too much pain to get to this stage to own it for myself,” Will explained.
He never got to see a lot of ‘representation’ while he was growing up, which added to the shame he felt.
“I have to remind myself that I’ve grown up in a society — fair enough it was different times — but from a very young age where I’ve felt wrong and bad and evil actually,” the star told YouTube Originals
“And I didn’t see any representation and so a lot of shame is foisted upon people who do feel different and ‘not normal’.”
He discussed how he felt for YouTube Pride, which is a huge virtual celebration for Pride Month 2021.
The Evergreen singer previously discussed how he struggled with his sexuality.
In his autobiography To Be A Gay Man, he wrote that he used to pleasure himself on trains when he felt “ashamed” of his sexuality.
Will would buy gay porn at Victoria Station and then view it in the train toilets when travelling from London to his Berkshire home.
He admitted he started doing this because he was feeling “more and more frustrated” with his identity.
The singer wrote: “That summer, I started pushing the boundaries as far as I could. I noticed in the tube station in Victoria there was a newsagent that had gay porn mags.
“It seemed odd that this particular shop had them, as I had never seen them in a newsagent before. It took me a few weeks to build up my courage, but one day I went in and purchased three of these magazines.
“As I went up to the till the feeling of dread I had was almost overpowering. I felt as though something awful was going to happen: the shopkeeper would make some comment or judgement, and people in the shop would point and stare at me.
“Even after buying the magazines, I felt that everyone in the tube station knew what I was up to. It was a mixture of terror and guilt. When I got to the train to take me back to the countryside and to home, I went to the loo and looked through the magazines.
“I went quickly through them and then squashed them into the bin before I got off the train so that there was no evidence.”
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